Elephant Graveyard

Here is where music will go to die, until the graveyard becomes too large.

The plan is to build some packages on a few assorted packages, each including a few songs, perhaps a music video, some writing, and something to remember.

First package: Emotion

Second package: Sociology

Third package: Morals

Fourth package: Psychology

  • Include Rorschach

Fifth package: Journalism

Sixth package: Economics

Seventh package: Medicine

Eighth package: Biology

  • Include flower

Ninth package: Physics

Tenth package: Theology

Eleventh package: Measurement, Range, and Order

  • Include a coin or a compass

 

I’ll include songs with these lyrics:

 

Primary

Well this fluid in my veins runs red

My gray edged hand matches my yellow teeth,

Twisted and broken, so unlike yours, until you get beneath

Down and out, what do you want from me?

You scream and pick teams, but what will it mean?

Your planet’s peace has been taken,

But because of these quirks, your works undone,

And our lives are shaken,

And your world’s been undone.

Through all these days and thorough abuse,

Our tough trials have brought up our disease and our deuce.

No rhyme nor dark lie can spite and my god,

Sparks ignite.

While bullets fly and stones decay,

No time or month is right,

All flight will now delay,

And you may still depart but because no revolution starts

You won’t take part.

All for the sun and my own foolish blunder,

Our reckoning will place,

The marks on our face,

Or else, we will find,

When our mirrors unwind,

And the wind chimes do chime, and do

What they’re supposed to do.

Oh, the green.

 

 

That Ain’t Reality

I’d like to think of the future and change babe,

But you know that’s been done before.

I’d listen to your thoughts on what’s right

But I know that ain’t reality.

No I know that you care babe,

I can see it in your face,

But my senses are tricky,

And what I see ain’t reality.

Of course they’ll say, let her go, babe,

But I don’t care much for them,

And I wonder if ever you were mine to keep,

Because babe, we ain’t reality.

What do you want me to say,

When there is no chance to listen,

And what do you expect me to see,

When you say this ain’t reality?

They want me to be there for you babe,

But the trouble is I don’t care,

See what you want to see,

As for me, what I see ain’t reality.

…

Honestly, we’re just too different, babe,

But ask and I will follow.

Whatever you want can be, but as for me,

That ain’t reality.

 

 

Impulse

 

Nature knows, by your fingertips and toes,

That zeros and those, are too many too expose.

But lingering in dumpsters, by binary bunkers,

I’ll dispose, endless rows of old world foes.

You’ll put another pebble in the pond,

And find that rowing, the boat was your con.

 

A youngling, you believed, that the skies held Valkyries,

That pulled the high strung knees, of mysteries.

But it’s the spinal cord bone, stung by the bees,

Locust fleas. Harvesting the golf-flinger’s tees.

You’ll put another pebble in the pond,

And find that rowing, the boat was your con.

 

 

I Know I am Alone

 

In the darkness of the night you have found me,

I’m on the road and so are you.

Climbing mansions is a memory,

I suppose that you are too.

 

We’re all babies and we’re all born,

From our mothers, taken and torn,

Would you rather always be seen?

I can tell by your smile that you’ve run out of steam.

 

Though I’d hate to be right and I’d hate to be wrong,

I know you people have been here too long,

But I don’t want to die, if I’ll be hearing your tone

So I lay here thinking, but I know I’m alone.

 

So tell me where to go, what to do, what to see,

Can it really be mistaken jealousy?

Well who are you to have every answer,

And why can’t you see that everyone’s a dancer.

 

If we’re really different, then why do I feel the same,

As everyone of freewill only complains?

We’re both on the road but you’re in my mind,

Our destination feels left to the blind.

 

I want to disappear, so take me to that place,

I want to show you what flows in my veins.

Because my dreams have scared me when we are entwined,

I’ll leave the reality for you to decide.

 

You must know which of us came first,

If I never existed, which of us is the cursed?

I’ve got some idea as to why you exist,

You’re part of my life to help me get the gist.

 

But you are the only one that everybody knows,

So I remain alone.

 

 

I’ll Say

 

Well I’ll say I want you, if you say it too,

Oh what I’m, prepared to do.

Just give me what it is you want,

Honey, you’ll get what I’ve got.

 

Well when the sun comes up, I’m still thinking of you,

But all the time it stops, whenever I am made new

And it’s you, honey, it’s you that I see

And it’s you, baby, that makes me want to be.

 

Once when I did see you, it confused me quite a bit,

How should I feel this way, with one that I’ve just met,

But we’ve known eachother, yes known eachother

For quite some time,

And I’m still amazed at just how I feel,

To know that you are mine, oh!

 

Structure seems, to disappear, and I realize my youth.

We’re both so young this year, and I know that it’s the truth.

But I don’t care, about much at all, and don’t you dare,

Fall when I don’t fall, oh!

 

It’s a trip to the candy shop,

And an absolute delight,

We’ll fly from block to block,

And at midnight we’ll still talk!

Oh, oh, oh, at least until it’s light!

 

 

My Solution

 

I’m just trying to figure out who I am,

What I can do, and why I can

Lately anger is all people give me,

What should I do with all this madness in me?

 

People are limp, blind, deaf or dumb

but if I’m one of them when can I have fun?

I’m sick and tired and nothings bothering me

why do I act like there’s a father in me?

problems with you and the economy

use your fucking brain and get away from me.

 

We’re all getting smaller every day we’re living

all my rage, let’s start at the beginnin’.

Was it inevitable, this end from point one

Pointless lines they’ll bend until they’re done.

Just like my life they’ve barely begun

that’s what really puts all this anger in me

you’re all acting like an emissary

but this is what happens when the lines get blurry

my eyes water and I choke back the grin you give me

so who am I well you tell me,

I’ve got other things bothering me

what can I do? everything within me

Why can I do it, because you want it from me.

 

C: And I’m using what there is ’cause there’s so little

of one thing be sure, you’re in the middle.

 

 

You Know Where I’ll Be

 

I’d like to let go of what I know and forget about what I don’t

To see the truth for what it is and not what it is I won’t.

There ain’t nothing in reality that is as concerned as me,

And no matter what the matter is, wherever you are I’ll be

 

There is timeless pain and anger, but life will go on

If we all die tomorrow, then some others will pass on

I’ll not say love is the answer, but for this lock there is a key

And no matter what the matter is, wherever you are I’ll be

 

If I could reach perfection, how much more could you expect

And if dreams were all I’d talk about, why then would you have left

Maybe it was my fault, but I doubt that and you’d agree

But no matter what the matter is, wherever you are I’ll be

 

Why do I have these dreamy thoughts and yet no dreams at all?

There’s darkness and there’s fireflies, but mama where’s the lull?

It’s wrong, it’s wrong; I know it’s wrong, here in this universe

But that part’s right, at least I know, I’d have to care for you at first

 

 

Suzan Song (The Train Song)

 

What are we doing here, Suzan?

People don’t use trains anymore

And I’ve just got no friends

It’s been a long time since you walked out the door

 

And the time that’s passed has been so small

All my thoughts tend to slow

But I won’t move without a reason,

Been too long, now too low

 

So I claw at the window and just bawl

Feelings honestly don’t control it all

It’s not instinct neither

The train’s stopped and I don’t have either

 

Could be a good thing, stuck in here

You can tell whose safe by what they keep near

Black eyes glare at me, blank eyes stare at me, don’t know how to react

As a matter of fact, there’s no will in that

 

Anyways, that was a good, good memory–electro-negativity

Anyhow, I noticed your fingers were a new color, purple probably

Anyhoo, you’re crying now–boohoo

And I been dyin’ just tryin’ to figure out what to do.

 

And it’s yet another new season Suzan

Grab a drink behind the bar,

Don’t trip, it happens often

Tie my shoe, train your car, do what you do

 

 

Don’t be Scared

 

Don’t be scared

of what you see

Don’t be scared

of what will be

And don’t

Fear this fear this fear

This fear is not survival

And don’t fear this fear

This fear will not survive you

 

Gotta get you back to your home in Tennessee,

I’m going to find out if that’s where you really, really, want to be

And don’t be scared, don’t worry that I’ll disagree

 

This world’s got some monsters,

Well I’m the worst one,

And if that ain’t true, I’m going to get me gun

 

When your life is a worry, that people don’t change,

We’re all in a hurry, got to act our age

So I’ll take you away to a pretty little place

And I’ll sing you this song, I’ll say it right to your face

 

And don’t be scared

 

 

Wasted Words

 

Well I’ve never been a drinker

but I like to look at wine,

and I’ve never been a thinker,

but there are many thoughts of mine

 

And in this life I’m found a drifter,

moving from shore to shore,

but with all this world’s wisdom,

will I ever know what it’s for?

 

And you, you would know what I like.

 

But what I need is not the answer,

nor the means to survive

There’s no reason to deliver

this body that I drive

 

So yeah, I like some things

and I love some things too

And everyone has soul,

and that’s nothing new

 

And you, you would know, know who I am.

 

So give me not barren wasteland,

or the image of a theif

the only thing is silence

that gives me relief

 

My mind’s got soul

and my heart’s got soul

and the only words not wasted, that I know

are shut up… and let go.

 

 

Dark Fingers (Headaches and Heartattacks)

 

If I could meet you, that would be perfect

I’m feeling lonely, and I am homesick

It has been too long, how has it been here?

I could not write you, like I wanted to.

 

And it hasn’t been the summer, in so long

I’ve been feeling cold, since you’ve been gone

If you would come here, I’d give you a kiss

I wouldn’t mean much, just that you’ve been missed

 

And at the end of the night, the night never ends

You might stay there, but I’m stuck with friends

and it’s not a problem, I do not mind

the night will be fine, as long as I’m kissed

 

You operate like strangers, though you offer to drive

I’d choose the music, but I can’t decide

We’re moving too fast, bound to collide

 

And we’ve been men, with our dark fingers,

and you’ve been women, with voices of singers,

but if you do come here, I’ll give you the list,

it names every reason, you’ll never be kissed

 

Because it’s been forever, forever and a day,

Oh why, why have I been left here this way?

The wind always cold, the world on my mind,

What is the cause, I still can’t decide

 

But now I’m here, the world has not changed,

the only thing new is what’s in my brain

And I’m having a heart attack, just not knowing

when you will be back

 

So it seems to me, life is unusually clean

I’ve been stuck here, for a dozen years it seems

 

And at the end of the night, the night never ends,

You might go home, and we’ll still be friends,

but if you don’t go, then we won’t be friends

and I do not mind, no it’s not my problem,

the night will be fine, as long as I’m kissed.

 

 

Harmless Grain of Sand

 

You better laugh when you get up

and find you’re alone

because time was a wake up call

and you threw away the phone

And you and I had a history

that you’re never going to know

because I could’ve talked for a century

but you just had to go.

 

You better laugh when you’re crying

because that’s what I expect

for time what meaningless to you,

or did I just get no respect?

When you had too many private moments,

I only got neglect

and I should have seen it coming

like this noose around my neck.

 

C: And I’ve got no fear of dying,

but I sure do feel the pain,

the pain of you leaving,

it’s driving me insane,

like a nail on a window pane, or a harmless grain of sand,

like a bullet in my brain, with nobody holding my hand.

 

Yeah, you better keep on laughing though,

while I just lay in bed,

because tomorrow waits to be years away, and to me that time’s not dead

That’s the place my mind stays,

when I’m laughing in my head,

It’s the place where you once loved me,

but now that I regret.

 

 

Highway Blues

 

How long have I known

How long can I go,

How long have I known, that I am alone?

She knows how I feel,

When I look at her,

But when I don’t look,

She don’t know how I feel,

The things you love

Oh the things you love,

The things you love will pass away,

But that which is dead,

Oh what is dead,

What is dead will come back some day!

 

C: And you might ask, well how are you?

But that’s not what I’ve done, and it’s not what I’m going to do.

‘Cause you got grasp, but you ain’t gonna reach it,

And I may leap before I look, but I won’t teach it,

 

Well I take risks

Yeah, I take risks,

Well I take risks, won’t learn my lesson,

And these bigger steps,

And bigger steps,

Bigger steps, keep me guessin’

‘Cause the world is small,

and I’m a big fish,

and if I’m caught,

then what’s the risk?

‘Cause I’ve earned my nerve,

got peace when I was able,

but now I’m on my own,

gettin’ even with the unfaithful!

 

And these Highway Blues,

the highway blues,

the highway blues they come for you

So if you leave tonight

darling get out of my sight

Leave tonight, comeback tomorrow

Because I got to be free,

I miss being me,

And I got to be free till the morning

When it’s a new day,

another frozen day,

Fire will be burning in me.

 

I’ve got the world on my back,

So please don’t attack,

It’s cause for some thought

and it’s time that I lack

So I’ll start with the music,

before I go deaf

And when my words are done,

I’ll draw my last breath

When my words are done,

I’ll draw my last breath.

And when I can fly,

I’ll fly like the rest.

 

 

Butterflies

 

Butterfly, Butterfly

Butterfly, why aren’t you strong?

Butterfly, oh Butterfly,

When I die, you’ll move along

 

C: But when I get there,

Send me back to my home,

Because when you get there,

I don’t want to be alone

 

Butterfly, butterfly,

butterfly, it is not wrong

Butterfly, oh butterfly

When I die, you’ll keep going on

Butterfly, butterfly

Butterfly sing me a song

Butterfly, oh butterfly

One more thing before you’re gone

 

Butterfly, butterfly

Butterfly, don’t pass away

Butterfly, oh butterfly

If you die, I just may

 

 

The One Who Cries

 

C: I once was, the tallest in my family

Back then, I thought, love was meant to be free

because I was with you someplace, but you were someplace with me

So if love was meant to be, why didn’t you give yours to me?

 

You were chasing fireflies, while I was caught by you,

and if we looked toward the future, why didn’t we make anything new?

Well if you had only said yes, you might have been caught too.

 

And I know that you smell good, but when you look under my hood,

It’ll only be disappointment in your eyes

So now I’m thinking on my own, no I’m not looking for a bone,

just a philosopher’s stone that I may roll

 

Because I’ll be giving my love, to any machine that comes,

But it won’t be the same phenomenon to you

You’ll roll your eyes, whisper parting goodbyes,

and keep crying the whole night through

 

For I’ve got no disguise as your heart passes mine,

like the diamonds in your lobe that now are gone

And it’s a wicked dream, for it to always seem,

that my love goes out but does not return,

 

So I’m waiting for your words, no matter how much it hurts,

Because it’s always going to be worth it in my mind

And I’ve become a man, surviving more than I can stand,

and still I wish I was a child again

 

You should have wanted me, to do so much,

for I was not a crutch, but the air under which your sail could fly,

Now I’ll shave my face once more, as I sign my first divorce,

From the only true love I ever knew

 

But I’ll abandon my metaphor, as I sing out once more,

that darling, you’re a fading memory.

And my only regret is not that we had met

but that I had ever let you in… and I’ll never do it again

 

Though I am capable, you would have to be a fool,

to think that I am giving up on you

Still you’ve got sleep in your eyes, as I remember your goodbyes

and find, that I’m the one who cries… and I might just do it again, for someone new

 

 

A Scientific Man

 

I could speak, but I’d tell you ever word,

And I could see, but I just want to be heard,

Because I’m a scientific man, every angle in my hand,

But let there be no confusion, you’ll never see how I stand

 

I have a small bed, that’s all I need,

If I sleep there alone, that’s all I have to be

Because I’m a factory man, and all I know is the plan,

but let there be no confusion, you’ll never see how I stand

 

C: Because we can all be cold,

but that doesn’t mean that we should

it only means, not everything is good

 

If I could walk, I’d only want to crawl,

If I could move my feet, well I wouldn’t do that at all

But I’m an Elderly man, with just a short lifespan,

And though I may speak slowly, my life just began

 

And I can touch a woman, without sleeping with her,

I can love just one, or at least that’s what I prefer

But I’m a romantic man, that’s always among friends

And let there be no confusion, I walk the line for them

 

Yes a patient man, takes his time,

He may be alone, but he says he’s doing fine

…And if I could leave the Dakotas, well you know I would…

 

 

Last Words

 

It’s screaming like a buzz-saw in my ear,

can you guess the last words I ever did hear?

It’s the same thing I tell you year after year,

When my mouth is moving my mind isn’t clear.

 

See I was born in the school of law,

I must admit, I didn’t like to be taught

but where you come from you never can change

so you live without regret, but remember your mistakes

 

C: And I live the quiet life,

Never did have to do or die,

but when you live looking through everybody’s window,

You only know the words, can’t tell which way the wind blows

 

And I was born to the only place I could,

I was a leader, never knew if I should,

but where I’m going I can’t rearrange,

so I’m following a path that can’t be explained

 

I can hunt if you can gather

I wish the words could be there faster

But I learn my lesson when I see your face

And remember the sound of being out of place

 

 

Man Of Action

 

No more, No more

I’m not gonna be a perfect gentleman,

Not gonna be a man of action,

that kinda thing has only gotten me perfection

I’d rather be a boy with no conviction,

So once I get this out of my system… I’ll say…

No More, No More

I’d rather believe all the things you tell me

but that’s just not how my mother raised me,

So until I find the cure for what ails me,

I’ll be saying to you all the lies that amaze me

because that’s the kind of belief that can save me, but…

No more, no more

I’m not out looking for what happiness is for,

and I’m perfectly aware you’ve become once more,

all the things in my heart that’s sore,

but what can I do in the future or before,

I only know how to love and say…

No more, no more, to die, to sleep, no more…

 

 

My Young Thoughts

 

I’ve never been moved by heartbreak, as much as I have by love,

If I could, I’ve bring the clouds from above,

And I’m trying not to laugh, but your pain is not enough

 

C: Because I’ve always been living the same way,

Caring for all who pass me by,

But no matter how you treat me baby,

I ain’t never gonna cry

 

And if ever I have a small child, I won’t forget my young thoughts,

Though I may ramble, from spot to spot,

If he knows my wise words he won’t be lost

 

Though years from now, I’ll be known for only my vision,

People will say I’m blind until then

And though I may not do, all I wanted to, well that won’t be my decision

 

Because a better woman just, passed my way,

And I’m choosing to care for her this time

 

 

Happy

 

On sleepless nights,

I’ll burn my dreams,

From the top of each building,

You know I will scream

About the wasted hours

We spend on our knees

 

And I’ll blow my trumpet,

as I taught myself,

And I’ll feel no temptation

With your hands upon my belt,

And when the moon moves on your skin,

I’ll know how it felt

 

But I’ll forget each time,

In the back of my mind,

And I’ll know why I do it,

Because I’ll know you are wild,

Like the surface of the sun,

Or a cool Winter smile

 

Oh…

 

On sleepless nights,

I will burn every dream,

And from each rooftop,

You know I will sing,

About the wasted hours,

We spend on our knees,

Oh, about everything,

That you would let me

 

Oh…

 

 

Innumerate

 

A hammer on my fingers, and a bullet in my hand,

If I can pull fast enough, you might see my demands

A dollar in my pocket, and a diamond on my mind,

If I can pull fast enough, that diamond might be mine

 

C: Because I’ve been preaching, using numbers, I don’t know,

And if they had taught me letter, but no, I had to learn on my own

 

And it is hard to read and write right now, but it won’t be that way long,

If I can keep on living right, I know I’ll get along,

And it is hard to breathe and listen, but I know I must be strong,

If I can keep on pulling quick, I know I’ll keep going on

 

A hammer on my fingers, and a bullet in my hand,

If I can pull fast enough, you might see my demands

 

 

Burning Embers

 

You may think I am dead,

but I’ll soon be reborn

Like a harmless piece of clay,

That’s finally returned to it’s form

For I am not a lady,

you’ve longed hope would return,

nor am I the man,

that has always made your embers burn

 

C: I am only in the evening

something you can’t ignore,

like rain on the window, in your dream

turned to footsteps on the floor

 

You may think I act strangely,

but of this you may be sure:

the dark needs less sunlight,

when it’s cold, to keep it warm

So I may never be a man,

that will be coming back to you

for all I ever did was reach,

now you’ve gone, I know I’m through

 

 

Do it Again

 

You say the things I’ve given you, other men will offer too, but will they?

The truth might hurt, but worse than pain, I have found is beauty.

 

C: Because you ask me to be serious, when all you are is curious, well did you have fun?

Why don’t you break it yourself, go out and buy a new one!

 

You’ve always said love is murder of the soul, well you’ve got none,

And I’ve been giving answers, to questions you don’t ask, but it’s time that we got some.

 

I’ve been honest but misunderstood, for as long as I could but now I’m silent,

And I may be awake while the world sleeps, but why, why don’t you try it?

 

When you tell me to break the rules, but I only lived by one and that was find you.

I don’t know why I wanted it to help, but maybe that’s not true.

 

But you know life is happening for others, I mean don’t you?

And you know we all get nervous sometimes, at least I hope that’s true.

 

And your tears are starting to feel more like salvation,

So if you can do that again, why, why are you waiting?

 

 

Absolutely Zero

 

The Sun, goes up and down forever

When it dies, a new start will be born,

And life has cycles

Or elsewhere, will go on.

But Earth is a cage

Oh Earth is a cage

Earth is a cage

 

Life can not be still, or else would be frozen

But we can be more, than a complicated person

And we can find, some kind of fulfillment,

or are we blind?

For we all grow up to be teachers,

Oh we all grow up to be teachers,

We all grow up to be teachers

 

And some say love, is their reason,

I guess I’m one of them,

But should a man run, out of season,

or should he wait for Spring to come

 

 

Elephant Graveyard

 

Seems like everywhere I go, I find a liar

but I’ve been trying hard to quit that fire

You lookin’ like, you might deny it

But when the lights cut out, I know you won’t be quiet

 

I’m going to the graveyard, I’m bringing my bones

I’m going to leave them there, because I’ve never been alone

 

Seems like everyone I know, follows a pattern

But I’ve never been one for repetition,

And you lookin’ like, you got a new situation

but when the light cuts out, I know your story’s breakin’

 

And I may be breaking, but don’t be afraid,

Elephants were made, to break that way, too

I’m going to the graveyard, bringing my bones,

I’m going to leave them there, because I’ve never been alone, like you.

 

 

Banjo Song

 

We were young, boy did we have fun, feeling good

We wanted it to last, never knowing if it would

 

But how can it be, that when you left me,

I’d find, everything I need

 

C: And dreams my, fade away, in the morning rain,

But I find, with time, their truth, is here to stay. Oh, you’re here to stay.

 

And it was strange, put me in a daze,

But I can’t complain, or at least, that’s what I’ll say.

 

 

Halloween Song

 

My sunken eyes counter your charred skin,

See you, but I stay hidden,

I feast on your shadows, your want is mine,

I live for one day, the sweet turpentine

 

Ooo oh ooo ooo ooo ooo

The world is gone now,

My love is found now,

She is, so gracious and thin,

The void, the restless wind…

 

Your breath reaches me so quickly,

Soon I confuse it with my own,

It tastes so sweet, my taste buds do adjust,

Soon I consume my only lust

 

The day grows dark, my pulse thickens,

Inside my bed I am hidden,

To wait for tomorrow, is all I know,

Give to the peace, the barren, the flow

 

Ooo oh ooo ooo ooo ooo

The world is gone now

My fear is gone now

I strip, skin to the squal,

My flesh is blessed with it all.

 

 

Walking in the Valley

 

I am walking through the mountains,

the sky is over head

I am dreaming, never sleeping, of death

 

I wear no clothes, I have no home

I have no one, to call my own,

But you sew what you reap, and I am a thief,

I am burning, my flesh torn from bone

 

I am walking through the valley

the shadow close behind,

It is lurking, always waiting to find

 

I am nothing, I am small

A hallow shell, that is all

But my body has a power that no one can see

And into the flames you will fall

 

Your time has come,

The forest sighs, the shadow is mine

You know it in your soul for I am your soul

That you must die.

 

 

A Place that’s New

 

Remember that time in the Rio Grand

I reached out with my trembling hand

You told me, I had to understand

That I am not your man

 

I am reminded of, everything I love

But wherever I am, I’ve had enough

It may be a little, but I say too much

Though my words are a little rough

 

And if you feel every road has an end,

Open your heart so it can mend,

Because I’m starting to think we’re out of time to spend

And I can’t be just your friend

 

C: For we’ve been many places, since I have known you,

And I’m going back to the beginning, to find a place that’s new.

 

 

Bound for Hell

 

I won’t think about the future, because the future is not in my hands

All I’ve got in my pockets, is an hourglass without sand,

So I’m drifting on each borderline like I’m out looking for land

But the weather, don’t harbor me, I don’t give what she demands

 

C: And upon the island, you put yourself to sleep,

I’ll never join in your farewell

No matter where that land is moving,

Babe, I’ll just go to Hell

 

You tell me all your thoughts, but they don’t travel on air,

Because I’ll be playing baseball, while you’re playing truth or dare,

So what’s the point of being a dreamer, when it seems like nobody cares,

Well I might meet another one, but I’ll be completely all aware

 

You have shallow ears, that make your heart beat so still,

To me drums are pounding, but my hands will never kill

Because I can keep my feelings in, but that’s always against my will,

Because imagination is better when your hearts aloud to spill

 

I figured out the mysteries you wandered at so long

I couldn’t publish anywhere, so I wrote them in a song

but nobody would listen, yes everyone moves along

so I started to sing quietly, now my words are almost gone

 

 

Younger Brother

 

My mama said, don’t be a man

she told me son, don’t play with guns

my daddy said, don’t play guitar

he told me son, follow your heart

 

C: but my brother, he didn’t listen

he played with his guns

And now he tells me, go back

to where you’re from

 

My sister said, don’t waste your time

she told me brother, listen to your mother

my grandpa said, don’t wind up dead

he told me boy, use your head

 

 

Gem

 

C: I want my life, to be a green stem

with which I may grow, and never know tomorrow

But I need tomorrow like a withered hem

and you will be the gem, but I won’t need to borrow

 

What desperate hunger is in your eyes,

it stuns my mind

I’ve lived my whole life to be wise,

but it’s not wisdom that I find

 

And I know, where happiness lies

and there is more, to her eyes, those eyes

 

I need somebody not myself

maybe no one is little

I’d like to feel, the scraping wind,

but my body is too brittle

 

And I know, where happiness lies,

but there is more, to her eyes, those eyes, those eyes, they lie

 

 

Super Nova

 

I close my eyes, and all I hear

is the sound of your breath in my ear,

but when I am open, you aren’t there

I feel so much, at times am scared,

to close my eyes and be aware,

that you were only down that hall

 

C: Because we need time to listen

and be patient with love,

Because the stars do glisten,

but light takes time to come

 

So before this season is truly fall,

I want to tell you about it all

about the life you know I want

but it’s not quite what you’d expect

no calculation no proof of debt

just you and me, singing one song

 

And it’s nothing more, it’s nothing wrong

all it is, is playing one song,

and there’s nothing more that we should do

And all it is, is up to you

the calendar is always new,

then I’ll go home and sing alone

 

And upwards over the mountain, a star will come.

The Scale of Things: Stature and Faculty

 

I’m here to say that we are a part of the greatest society that exists. I won’t group us as humans, but as living creatures. You should know that all things are living. The universe has biological processes few can fathom, but are certainly a part of. And in this fact, it is clear we don’t need to understand everything for it to go on indefinitely.

Perhaps this makes one self-conscious, but it should do just the opposite. We are infinitesimal, but so are we infinite in stature and faculty. This does not cancel us out unless we want it to. In a somewhat cruel way, which is practically divine in nature, the system is self-correcting. That which survives, survives. This is not circular. It isn’t false. It simply is what it is, like a computer code and its products.

We are in a cause and effect world, but I think it’s an affect world as well. We need only see the beauty of input/output. Need only to how beautiful truth is. How fundamentally lovely right action is. And then we can take it. And then we can thrive for ages–possibly all of them. My hope is that we outlast this universe, or at least live long enough to accept its inevitable decay. Our inevitable growth and extinction, is out there. I know what I’m aiming for. I can see the whole spectrum. And I didn’t search for it, do you know that? It has been derived.

Whatever our crux, whatever our exposition comes to, whatever our thesis and conclusion–I will not blather on and on. I will work when I have to, and I will appreciate the quality of our ecosystem. I hope only to see more, and do more for it. My reasons are in me and out of me, and they do not matter. Only right action matters, like a rolling stone.

How to Begin

How does one start, when seeking a better world?
They ask a question. Often we neglect that questions are in fact a response to something. Something that doesn’t make the sense it needs to.
Well, it is the logical step that questions come before answers, so I’ll ask my questions now.

How can we live forever?

How can this life be one of quality?

What does it mean to live?

These questions are the foundation. They are the reason why. Soon, I will present my answers, in the most appropriate form I can think of. It need not be a utopia. Life exists as it is. I do not seek to create or destroy, hardly even to change. I seek only to do what I can, and what I will. Soon, economics, biology, genetics, theology, sociology, philosophy, physics, mathematics, and all other fields will have concise answers they have so long been deserving. They have been denied them, by their current age. I will put this age into perspective, and I will put my hands into the dirt it has created, and I will at least justify a person’s existence. I will hope in the end, that we care enough about our species, our world, and all of our existence, to carry out truthful lives. Meaningful ones. Not automated, but civil, ethical, and beautiful lives.

Welcome.